God's Timing for My Future Mate

I tell you all a truth...even if I wanted to date, set-up a date, blind-date set-ups, and anything surrounding getting a mate in 'my-time' since I was 23, God broke up that engagement (the 2nd one) God - SUPERNATURALLY STOPPED IT!

During my Hosting/Reporting/Producing days in the late 80's to the late 90's! It's like, if a guy liked me, saw me on tv/ or had no idea about that part of me, he'd ask me out, then, literally dissappear into the abyss of yet another, potential mate gone missing...never to be heard from again. I had lots of prisioners send me letters though. And I still have those letters of 'fantasy' love stored away, from almost every jail that was in the viewing area.

So "waiting" on God is not an issue for me. I am hidden in Christ so much that even if "I" wanted to do my own thing, the Lord - stopped it! Now, that is special for God to love me so much, to honor my prayer, after my 2nd breakup when I was 23, to protect me and put an army of angels around to prevent me from marrying the wrong man! Watch what you pray for!!!

This person must be SPECIAL! Why all of that for a simple relationship/marriage/children?

I went to a 'curse-breaking' service years ago at my former church in Chi- thousands of single women, divorced women, came, and a powerful Apostle from Africa prayed for us and for our future mates to come forth! That was 15-17 yrs ago...And out of all those women believing God, to break strongholds, curses, bloodline issues, defeat, loneliness, and so on...this African guest layed hands on ME! No one else! I was like, "why do I stand out?" Is it that bad? LOL

Beauty, has nothing to do with having a man, if you are covered and surrounded by his angels and there is a hedge of "protection" around you.

When people meet me at first, they "assume" I have someone and a family. I got so used to going to places, i.e. restaurants, travelling, whatever, by myself, that I'd get stared at, like I was a freak, for being alone. Never go out on a Friday night or Saturday night to the movies by yourself. Get a girlfriend or family member to hang with you. But, I didn't care, I became 'immune' to my singleness.

I'd dress up, make up, smell good, and go...all by myself! And sometimes, I tell you no lie, that Celine Dion song, would be playing in the restaurant, store, trip, boat, wherever I went.

I could have played crazy and acted like I was talking to Jesus, but, that would only draw 'more' attention to me. LOL I feel my change coming, for whatever reason, and I am content. But, not called to singleness - I have thoughts too- at least. Then I have to clean my thoughts with the word of God! For real. Balance would be nice! Proverbs 31, "Let patience have her perfect work."

In all honesty, I just didn't want to be so seniored (better than saying old) that I'd be running after a highly energetic 2 year old begging her/him to "stop playing with mommy's teeth, and bring them back!" It's not my timing or in my control is it? LoL

In retrospect, I am so glad the Lord has kept me! This man, future husband, that God is saving me for, better be SPECIAL! At least Special enough for the Lord to prevent any unneccesary heartbreak, until his perfect timing. Turning 50 on Wednesday the 15th of Feb. does challenge my steadfastness however. I'm only human. But, God gives us the "Grace" to make it and stay pure and wait on his perfect timing.